Have you ever felt the urge to run out of the door screaming? I have. Just today actually. It was around midday. Only thing stopping me was my sense of public decency. Such a strong force that is… I’ve been wanting to learn signing but I don’t know where to start. In many situations IContinue reading “Scream.”
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Light.
I wish you hadn’t said that Mother. I know it’s my fault for taking your words too seriously, but shouldn’t you know by now how easily glass breaks when it falls to the floor? I’m fractured. Mother, you might not know how badly I fell, and how many times it happened. You might not wantContinue reading “Light.”
Cat.
Grandmother is not coming home. Her home. Well, she’ll find herself a new home. From a nursing home that is. After falling in the middle of the night a few weeks ago she couldn’t get up. She had not been eating well so she passed out. She simply doesn’t remember to eat regularly. Returning toContinue reading “Cat.”
Right.
I almost forgot. I was gone for a few months. Sorry. Not that there’s anyone other than me specifically waiting. Parrots and jellyfish. They’re are not especially interesting. They’re not especially uninteresting either. I’m indifferent towards them. That’s the word for it. It’s a bit annoying getting roasted by a English book we’re using inContinue reading “Right.”
Glow.
The button “v” fell off and now I just press the nub that used to be hidden under the fancy pancy button. Nubby nub. I think I’m autistic. I’ve been wondering about the possibility for the better part of the decade, and few months ago when I asked about it from my mother, she saidContinue reading “Glow.”
Uneasy feelings.
How nice. It’s Thursday. It’s been a while. I’ve been stressed for a while. While I’m at it, I should probably try and have a wholesome day. Or maybe not. I miss my cat’s whiskers. Wheee! Where is this world going, What should I do? While writing this, I’m wondering what should I listen to.Continue reading “Uneasy feelings.”
Window.
Today I opened my room’s window. Well, one of the two. It’s not completely open, I’m not a complete idiot. I just figured I should air my stuffy little room a bit. In the end the window I opened at noon is still open. It’s 8 pm. I like listening to cars passing by andContinue reading “Window.”
Prosthesis, prostheses.
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to lose a limb or the use of it at least. Even temporarily. What if my right leg was a stub that ended right below the knee? What if I couldn’t use my left hand? I’m more of a leftie than a rightie when it comes theContinue reading “Prosthesis, prostheses.”
4 am.
That’s the time I woke up. There was no alarms but I got up for a bit. It was still 3 hours before I would need to eat breakfast and go to school. I wish I would’ve had those 2 or 3 hours of proper sleep but what can you do. I was sad. So,Continue reading “4 am.”
Absence of sincerity.
Why is it so hard to get a sincere apology? Don’t you see that I’m hurt? Or do you not just care? There has been plenty of times I was scared of you ever since I was a child. You were always the first one to punish me. Even my grandmother saw that you wereContinue reading “Absence of sincerity.”
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