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Family matters.

There are some rules I’ve learnt to accept. Keep your expectations low. Don’t trust father. Don’t push your trivial grievances on anyone. Everyone has a life to live. Hope leads to pain. Grow up. Be happy. I struggle with most of those. I just can’t let go of hope even though it’d make my lifeContinue reading “Family matters.”

Feeling selfish.

Weird. I can’t live for others. I thought I could so I have tried to be what they want me to be. A child, a sibling, an adult, a student, social, happy. Independent, strong, patient and quiet, speak your mind, listen. Good at this, good at that. Not too good though because that’s bad. HoldContinue reading “Feeling selfish.”

Hey sister.

If you were any younger, or if I was any older we’d be pretty much twins. Sometimes I feel like we are even though there’s the undeniable age gap of 1 year and 1 month. Sometimes wish we were. Twins I mean. Even though we aren’t, I feel like we’ve shared some aspects of lifeContinue reading “Hey sister.”

Trust.

There’s one thing that’s quite dominant about my memories. That one thing has lots of different names I could call it. “I was close to my family as child” or “I spent most of my free time reading books” or “I focused on my studies when I was younger”. Those statements, while all true, areContinue reading “Trust.”

Hello.

I’m not writing this for you. Not for you either. This is just to please my sad excuse of an free loader. It’s sad really. I can’t even slack off properly. Maybe I should just stop before I screw myself up again with trying to be a better person. That’s what I do best. ScrewContinue reading “Hello.”